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homeless. [Saturday
May 1st, 2021 at 9:22pm]

Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops, that's where you'll find me. )

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April 30th, 2020 at 10:33pm]

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[Saturday
August 29th, 2009 at 6:29pm]
Who: [info]emma_avery and [info]jack_wilder (PSL.)
What: Running into each other ..again.
Where: Some random bar.
When: Saturday, August 29, 2009.


I know there's no turning back. If we put too much light on this, we'll see through all the cracks. Let's stay in the dark one more night. Don't want to know, I'm okay with the silence. It's the truth I don't want to hear. )
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[Saturday
August 22nd, 2009 at 7:54pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

I've been keeping to myself a lot lately and I think the reason for that is so that I don't accidentally kill someone out of pure frustration. I wish I was kidding. Even my poor little Tina has been getting manhandled and she doesn't appreciate it. Not one bit. For example, I was walking her yesterday and I passed by a couple who were arguing. It went something like this:

Girl: "You see your friends every night. Why can't you just come with me to my parents house for dinner? You never come."
Asshole: "Because, babe, tonight is poker night. You know I never miss poker night. I'll see your parents another time."

I may have yanked Tina's leash a bit too hard in order for me to walk away faster from them, and realized I might have yanked too hard when she yelped. I was half expecting the president of PETA to jump out of the bushes and murder me, but I guess it was my lucky day.

I think it's really pathetic that one person has the ability to take over your moods and turn you into a bitter, pessimistic version of yourself that was once bubbly and full of awesomeness. I also hate that it has happened to me and I've done nothing to stop it. Until now. Just the other day, I had some hamburgers on the grill for London and I. I was completely not paying attention to the hamburgers, ended up turning them into very hard hockey pucks and I got so pissed off, I chucked them off the balcony. I may have killed someone, I'm not exactly sure. Kinda hoping I didn't. Needless to say, she ordered us Chinese after that and made me swear to never grill again.

I think I need a vacation. Yup. That's exactly what I need. I'd love to go down to the Bahamas and do nothing but lay out on a beach, but it's really unfortunate that the islands are getting slammed with hurricanes this month and all of next month. Ireland is too far, though the idea of escaping to Ireland is enough to make me feel better. So ..I guess the only other option is New York to see the parentals and my brother. They yelled at me for not visiting them when I was in town for Jessica's wedding, but I really didn't have any time. So looks like I'm heading to New York to get away from the clusterfuck that is my life in Chicago. Yaaay. /sarcasm.

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[Friday
August 14th, 2009 at 3:45pm]
Who: [info]emma_avery and [info]jack_wilder (Private SL.)
What: Awkward run in.
Where: Somewhere in Chicago.
When: Friday afternoon, August 14, 2009.

OOC note: Sorry this took forever and a day, darling. Blame my laziness. <3

Carry me down, roll it in your arms 'cause I can't remember ever falling this hard. Tell me tonight all that we have been, was it nothin' more than a noise inside my head? Crashing down, crashing down in your avalanche. )
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[Tuesday
August 4th, 2009 at 5:26pm]
[ mood | okay ]

There really are no words to describe my best friend's wedding. They got married in St. Patrick's Cathedral and the groom was sagging his pants enough for the entire church to see what kind of disgusting, dirty boxers he was wearing. Really? My best friend married that? This is the same girl who attended the best private schools and was wearing couture clothes before she could walk. I don't get it. I would blame it on the fact that he treats her like the princess she is, blah blah blah, but I'd be a liar if I did. I caught the guy cheating on her, told her about it, and she ignored it. And let's not mention his questionable behavior with the stripper at his bachelor party, according to Jackson. I don't even want to know what went on there. But besides the fact that he's a total loser and almost ruined his own wedding, it wasn't really that bad. I got through it, even if Jessica threw the damn flowers straight at my head as if it was some kind of sick joke. I didn't enjoy that, not one bit. Okay, well ..maybe I did, since Jackson inevitably caught the garter. How cliche, right? Tell me about it. It was a little awkward knowing WT Bobby was standing there looking at my leg with the garter on it though. Ew, I think I just threw up in my mouth a little.

With that being said, I'm finally back in Chitown and it is so damn good to be back! From what I can tell, there's a lot of stuff going on but none of it has to do with me. Thank GOD. La Trattoria is still standing after me being gone for the entire weekend and that's a huge relief. Good to know the cooks actually like it enough to not burn it down.

On another note, I didn't know Jack had moved out to New York. He said it was for work or something, who knows, but a little bit of a notice would have been nice. We're exes and all but I'd like to think we're over the whole awkward phase and can be friends now, so I got a little pissed that I had to find out over an IM. I guess that's life though. Seany is out there with his girlfriend, which means London and I have the entire apartment to ourselves! This makes me really happy. I don't know what we're going to do with the spare room but we'll figure it out.

Private;
Spending the weekend with Jackson was ..pretty damn amazing. We didn't fight. Not even once, not even a little bit. There was no bickering, just us. Content. And every time he put his arm around me, I got goosebumps. Hi, my name is Emma McMannis and I may be making a huge mistake. Wonderful.
End Private;

Amanda & Billie -- I miss you hookers. We need to do something.
Rhiana & Nessa -- I HAVE PICTURES!
London -- Seriously need to talk to yooou.
Jackson -- Stop by La Trattoria sometime this week. I'm having one of my chef's make a vegan pizza. It'll probably be gross and taste like cardboard, but it's right up your alley.
Edit: Sadie -- HI BFF! I HAVE A FUNNY STORY ABOUT YOUR DAD AND I.

And on a final note, Kings of Leon have completely stolen my heart. ♥

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[Sunday
August 2nd, 2009 at 8:42pm]
Who: [info]emma_avery & [info]jack_wilder (PSL.)
What: Attending the white trash wedding of the year.
Where: Manhattan.
When: Sunday, August 2, 2009.

Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow. Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long.. )
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via Blackberry. [Sunday
August 2nd, 2009 at 5:59pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

I'm at the white trash wedding of the year in New York. FML x 100. When I get back to Chicago, I need some serious quality time with the ladies.

London -- Everything okay? I forgot to warm you about the creepy fat guy who lives next door who likes to walk around in his tight boxers. Sooorry.. :/

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[info]dmcgrath [Friday
July 31st, 2009 at 12:40am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Derrick... )

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[Tuesday
July 28th, 2009 at 4:12pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

I feel like today was one of those days where I should have just stayed in bed, curled up underneath my 3 blankets ..even though it's disgustingly hot outside. With the way I blast the AC? Pshh, trust me, you'll need slippers and a sweater. So I take a walk downstairs to the lobby to grab the mail, sorting through all the bills and bullshit and what not, when a very fancy envelop grabs my attention. It smelled like cheap perfume and cigarettes and that could only remind me of one very particular couple -- Jessica and Bobby. You've been warned. ) They're friggen getting married. My best friend, my poor, innocent, cute little BFF from New York is getting hitched and she sent me the invitation one week prior to the event. Really, Jess? Make it a little more obvious that you've got a bun in the oven. I mean seriously. I was so grossed out I couldn't even touch the blueberry pancakes I so desperately wanted to make.

Okay, that's a lie. I pushed their disturbingly white trash wedding to the back of my mind long enough to make myself some blueberry pancakes and I didn't call her until after I ate them. She said she got my address wrong and that the invitation should have gotten here two weeks ago, but whatever. I don't believe her. I think that dirt bag is turning her into a liar. In any case, I have to buy a last minute plane ticket into JFK to attend, even though I'd rather be doing something else. Like ..knitting, or something equally as boring. Actually, scratch that. There's no way in hell I'd attend this wedding alone. First off all, it's a wedding and you can't go dateless. Secondly, good ol' WT Bobby would never let me live it down. SO, HEY JACKSON, GUESS WHAT? YOU'RE COMING WITH ME. ALL YOUR DREAMS JUST CAME TRUE. A WEEKEND WITH YOURS TRULY. Sigh. I guess this means I'm no longer mad at you so be thankful. Also, I know you'd appreciate a nice white trash wedding. Should be a good time. ...Not.

As if that wasn't bad enough, Seany tells me this morning that him and Cadence are moving to New York. For a split second, I wanted to jump up and tell him that I''m going to tag along, but then I remembered La Trattoria. And my apartment here. And my friends and cozy little life I've built for myself here. After months of settling into this city, I think I can actually call this place home. Don't get me wrong, New York will always hold a special place in my heart, but this fabulous three bedroom apartment is where I belong. Speaking of which, I'll be living by myself until the end of August when London moves in but I'm fine with that. When she gets here, she can pick which bedroom she wants for herself and we'll have to do something with the third one. Maybe turn it into a gym? Or a really private zen room so I can do my yoga? Or, you know, we can be normal people and just keep it as a guest bedroom so we don't have to stick our friends on the couch when they stay the night. If they stay the night. I really am happy for Sean that he's moving on to bigger and better things in New York, whatever that may be, and I hope it keeps him happy. Oh and Seany? When you and Cadence decide to get married, please try to give me more than one week's notice with the invitation. That would be greatly appreciated.

D, where have you been? Should I call a search party?

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[Saturday
July 25th, 2009 at 4:28pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

OMG. This brought a happy tear to my eye! Sigh, I just love happy endings. )

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[Thursday
July 23rd, 2009 at 9:34pm]
[ mood | silly ]

I could do this for hours. )

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[Monday
July 20th, 2009 at 12:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

"A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love." - Muller.

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If love is a labor, I'll slave til the end. ♥ [Sunday
July 12th, 2009 at 9:57pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Okay, that quote is going to seem a bit out of place with what I'm about to talk about, but I don't care. I'm a firm believer of love, even after all the shit that's been going on lately. For a while now, I've been keeping a lot of things to myself for the simple reason that I didn't have anyone to turn to. I mean ..I did, but I just couldn't get myself to admit some things. Like how I started to develop feelings for someone else while I was with Jack. I guess our break up came as a surprise to a few people, but such is life. Relationships rarely work out while we're young and I say kudos to those who can keep it going for more than a few months. It's a lot of work and both people have to be extremely dedicated. I don't want us to get into arguments every time we talk to each other because I still care about Jack. It was hard for me to stay with him while I had feelings for someone else, and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt him ..so what was I supposed to do? Is it better to lie to yourself and to the other person for the sake of said "perfect relationship" or be true to yourself and fair to the other person and end it? I wish he could see that I did this because I truly care about him. I know what it's like to be cheated on. A lot of people do, and I'm almost positive most would agree that it's better to break up and go your separate ways when there's a third person involved.

Speaking of that third person. His name is was Jackson and I said that in past tense because I doubt I'll ever see him again. I just ..I don't know, I find it funny how a guy can be all about you. Kiss you, hold you, make you experience new, exciting things, and turn you into a completely different person while you're with them ..and love it at the same time, yet bail on you the second they find something out. Now that I'm single, I guess the chase was gone for him. And the thing that just kills me is that he said he wasn't after me because of the chase, but because he liked me. Sorry, but when someone runs away after they find out I'm single, everything he said before turns into a crock of shit. These days, it's hard to tell who's real and who's fake. Sadly, I think I found out the hard way. And what's even more sad is that I still can't get him out of my head. What the hell is wrong with me?

Aside from all that, I surprisingly haven't lost my mind. I've been keeping busy with La Trattoria, which is opening next weekend, by the way. There will be a grand opening party with free pizza and lots of alcohol, and you all better be there! I also found myself a new roommate and she'll be moving in at the end of August, so I'm really looking forward to that. Seany has been with his loverface girlfriend a lot lately, which is totally fine because they're super cute, but the apartment does get lonely sometimes. Having a girl roommate is just what I need.

Derrick also played a large part in saving my sanity today by going out to lunch with me and drinks afterwards. I'm proud to say that I'm the reason he's had his very first Irish car bomb since ..what, college? That's just waaay too long, I'm sorry. Clearly he hasn't been around Irish girls enough, but that'll change. We had such a good time today that we established that he's my new BFF. I know I'm corny but you'll get over it. Saying he's my BFF is really just an excuse for me to buy those matching BFF bracelets at Claire's and make him wear one. Hopefully he wont kill me.

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[Tuesday
July 7th, 2009 at 8:04pm]
Who: [info]emma_avery & [info]jack_wilder ( Private SL. )
What: Talking.
Where: La Trattoria
When: Tuesday, July 7, 2009.


I was roaming around, always looking down at all I see. Painted faces fill the places I can't reach. You know that I could use somebody. )
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